Life is such a fragile thing, constantly changing, no matter how much we try to keep it the same. I often think if only I could be 21 again with the knowledge I have today but then I remind myself to stop dreaming of the past and/or the future and concentrate on the present, on the here and now. Moments and experiences like death really bring that home to me.

When we got back to my home town I realized again how things change, yet strangely stays the same. For example the relationships we have with our parents, we get older but when we go home it feels like we’re 16 again and all the rules apply. Like not staying out to late, or maybe doing something you would normally not hesitate doing if you were home.

While home I was able to connect with several of my old friends I had lost contact with over the years and that was nice too. All those memories flooded back in…. I also toured my High School and took pictures….amazing how this can take you back. Again, falls under everything changes, but somehow stays the same category. :0

It was great seeing my family, friends, and being home again. I have even entertained the thought of moving back although I’m not sure how seriously I thought about it just because I’ve moved on in so many ways. I’m not condeming anyone but just questioning whether I would fit in.

Has anyone seen that movie, Garden State? What a great movie. You should definitely spend an evening/afternoon watching the movie. It’s all about going home, i.e., you’ve moved on with your life and so many of your friends have stayed, never leaving. Then the juxtaposition of those feelings. In the end realizing this is the only life we have so why continually analyze it and try to figure it out….just live it. Live every moment, don’t pass up people, or connections because you need to “think” about it. Life if too short.